Patience is a virtue
I hope God can give me the patience to be still
And to not move against His will
I want to fulfill my lifeplan that I'm supposed to undertake
But it gets hard
I want everything now
But rather than to do everything my own way
I will practice patience today
Forever
I know that the desires of my heart are heard.
Though you've scarred me in many ways
There is one thing that I will take away
That would be the message of vulnerability
I've allowed your anger to seep inside of me.
I'm learning to let you go and give you rest
Because there will come a day where I've tried my best
And a child of mine will come back to me
And say that I've wounded them undeniably
Looking at this scar now that's on my skin
I still hurt inside knowing what happened then
But we can't go back to undue the pain
The best I can do is grow my flowers from the rain
The best I can do is remember the happy times
When I felt like your little girl and life was full of rhyme
Now life is sprinkled with confused melodies
But I am the conductor and life's music is up to me.
I forgive you for bestowing the pain from that belt.
I forgive myself for holding on to the emotional baggage I've felt.
I forgive you for not being the father you should've been.
I forgive myself for not looking for that love within.
I am no longer going to chain my feet to the past.
I am choosing to let go of sadness and to let happiness last.
I am not a victim to your actions this present day
From this day on forward, I am a stronger woman today.
