Chocolate

You give me a fix that I can't get clean from
Dark and creamy
Salty and sweet
Crunchy yet smooth
Every morsel makes love to my senses
Tasting it only makes me want it even more
I long to give myself to it
To fall under its spell forever
The decadent flavor that tastes too good to be from a tree.
It must be from another dimension
Tastes like I'm nibbling on dark matter
Satisfaction that only quantum physics can define
Any day; any time.
It can come get this.

Sacred

One day
I will birth you from my heart
You will look to me and I will give you nourishment
Your hand will grasp mine
And I will gladly sing you lullabies
As your tiny head rests upon my chest
Eyes closing behind a veil of innocence
Forever protected and scared no more.

I will lift you up to the heavens
In harmonious praise for your life
You will mount my shoulders, head to the sky
Looking forward and never back
I will be your song when your voice is lack
Even when there are times when you will make mistakes and learn
I will never quench your fire that churns

You will be sacred
A phoenix by day and beautiful stone by night
That shines bright between both worlds as if diamonds cried tears
This world you will ignite and make right
Your ancestors shall sing your name
Your ancestors shall sing of your spirit.

Happy

For the first time in my life
I am not worried about being in someone's arms
Or allowing just anybody inside my own head
I am happy
I am content and honored by my own presence
This was not supposed to happen
But I am happy being me
Alone but not lonely
Encompassed in the still of my own peace
This is beautiful
This is bliss
I longed for this day like one longing for their first kiss
A day when I can sigh in relief
No more pain will be allowed into me
My heart
My mind
My soul
My body
Are all sacred pieces to my puzzle
I will not crumble or become weak
For the sake of allowing someone else to feast off of me
Draining my life force
Draining my temple
For the first time in my life
I can honestly say in a loud whisper
Free at last

When She Rises

My shining sun
Star in the sky
When she rises, I will be her Earth
She will possess me with lucid visions
A strong walk
A beautiful glance
An essence as sweet as perfume
She will be me
I will conquer my inner flaws like cement on cracked pavement
I will be loud in my appearance
Dainty in my talk
Rough in my approach in tackling life
I will be powerful
I am a queen
Destined to rule the golden pyramids that I conjure
I am a goddess
Creations that I speak of will sprout from the womb of the universe
I am a proud tree standing in the middle of an arid, dry desert
Surviving by tapping into her own water well
My head is lifted and proud
I am a shining sun
The star in the sky that I seek for direction
I will rise

Perseverance (Haiku)

Most times I feel weak

But in the bleakest moments

I come out stronger

Falling

I remember falling for you
When we intertwined like bees and pollen on a spring flower
Everything was perfect
Even our hell
Somehow the ride down was more passionate than our climax
Every touch seemed to last an eternity
Spiraling into an abyss of no return
You hiding the keys to the door to let me out.
Now you laugh.

I remember falling for you
Descending into the realm of helplessness
Stuck between bliss and torment
Can't seem to let you go
Because if I do
I'm afraid of losing the pain that comforts me
I know no other type of love
But the kind that burns the heart like acid

All I do is cry and bleed
On the inside
I keep falling.