Midnight oil

Sometimes nights 

Are like dark ink 

And my mind is a paper notebook.

My pen edges on a cliff 

Hanging on by a thread of words

That struggle to save me.

But I enjoy the rush.

Long journey

I swear

That long hair is a symbol of a long journey 

But heavy is the crown that is worn

When all I want is to feel light

Perhaps it's better to

Shorten my locs 

To cut every strand from the fertile scalp

That nourishes them

So that the weight of my journey 

Does not hinder my footsteps 

Intended to keep up the pace

Of a vivacious yet a hauntingly unknown path. 

Louder

Scream louder

So that the hardness of their cruelty bursts 

Into fine dust 

Make them recede like waves afraid of dry shores

Hush them with your noise

Drown them in your discontent 

Let the air molecules around you

Dance violently in tune with your rage

Let them know how unshakable 

The spirit of your ancestors are

Make the lions in you roar 

Rise up and be counted

Rise up and be heard. 

Love over Hate

It gives me another reason to

Rise every morning like the sun

Whenever I think about the

Pain that I can alleviate in somebody

Else's heart and soul

Mind and body.

Nobody can take away my will

To be a human being that chooses 

Softness instead of closed fists across cheek bones.

I'd rather kiss them.

Seeing broken shards of people

Everywhere I go hurts me beyond

What words I can write down intellectually. 

It gives me another reason to 

Give hope

Instead of despair that drowns.

I'd rather fill up a cup that is empty

Than to pour it out

barely quenching 

The thirst of a ground only wanting blood.

Love poem (Haiku)

One more love poem

To make him want to believe

In his light again

Strong (Haiku)

It tried to break me

Except this time I rise up

Not shattered but free

Don't Stop

Let me take care of you

As I tie up my rebellious, long hair

And trace your appendage with 

warm lips and wet mouth

Allowing you to sense

The electricity of my hands

Pleasuring you from shaft to head

From head to spine

I want to lay you down

And excite the hairs on your skin

Drowning every neuron with 

Endless surges of dopamine

As you feel helpless to my madness

I promise to end you.

The more you moan

The deeper I go

Let me take care of you

With my tongue wrapped around

The different parts of your anatomy

I feen for the delicacy of 

Your throbbing anticipation

I want your hips thrusting and eyes

Rolled back until you're 

Blinded by ecstasy

Damn you taste good baby

Don't stop pushing

My head closer to your climax

It's arriving

With every delicious suck 

In perfect harmonious rhythm

To your feverish desires

Cum to me 

 

Black Boy Joy

They are like dandelions 

Swaying in warm freedom

With fluffy heads and solid stems

Taking root in fertile soil made from love.

Their laughter are the notes to buried 

Ancestral songs, now resurrected 

Into gorgeous joy

Splintering like luminous light 

Breaking through the clouds.

Running because of exuberance 

Not because they're scared.

Jumping because they're capable

Not to avoid traps

Their eyes are brighter than a million suns

That have fused together

They dare to flourish and to exist

They dare to be happy, and to be black.

Their heaven, being the world that they've healed

Shine from each fingerprint left of their inner divinity.

Mirror Reflection

He has soft lips

That feel like dollops of smooth shea 

Melting me like rich butter on hot cornbread

Tasting sweet like a side of strawberry jam

He has soft hands

That caresses as if it were our first time

Everytime

He wraps his arms around my brown torso

Like protective vines around an orchid

Hands that I can kiss and hold beside my face

Their warmth radiating and expressive

He has a soft heart

Love shining through the whites of his eyes

I can see everything good through them

As if they were windows 

Bright and vibrant like excited nebulas

Bursting with magnificence and infinite beauty

I can see myself in him

And him within myself

One.

Who?

Who can captivate me the way you do?

But you don't even know that I exist

How I long to kiss your lips and frolic 

Under the scent of your body's natural cologne

Smelling like desire 

Tasting like addiction

Realizing that you belonging to another is

My only affliction

Because all other kinds of pain, pales in comparison

I want to be numb.

Please stop this torture.

I pray to the God's of love to redirect my vision towards something that won't blind me

Because I am being blinded by jealousy

Heartbreak

And a longing to possesses her body

Because it will be the only way I get to touch you.

I am obsessed

Drunk with feelings so irrational that

Not even in my dreams can it ever compute

Why do I crave you so much?

Was it in another life that I damaged you?

And now I have been reincarnated to forever be haunted by your absence?

Like a vapor, you disappear from my grasp despite my minds desperation.

Is there no relief or hope for me to conveniently 

Cut you out of my soul?

Can I not bleach you away?

I want to forget you

So that I can let these fruitless thoughts go

And let us be

Free to continue our lives existing in separate realities

But in a parallel universe

Would you ever be with me?

Could you ever be mine?

Or will our bodies continue to exist separately from each other

Both content living within our own timelines?

I guess I'll admire you from afar

With my head down 

And eyes casted away.

I want to be yours.

But it will never be that way.

Death of a Parent (Haiku)

Even though I knew

You would eventually leave

Your goodbye still hurts

Naked

Freedom to me

Is nakedness.

Feeling nothing but skin

On top of elements

Letting the breath of a lover

Hover over my body

Or the sweet, soft rays of the sun

Caress what little shield I have over

Muscle and sacred bone.

I want to be vulnerable.

Not as in being prey

But in being open.

Unafraid and wild 

Hair flying everywhere

Flesh and heart dancing together

As my mind makes up a tune

Made up of the notes of life

Collecting experiences like pebbles

Skipping them across wide, beautiful lakes.

Beautiful enough to swim in

Naked.

Unravel

All it takes 

Is a moment I perceive

To be an emotional cut of the heart.

Then I go bleeding out.

At first, a pin-prick.

Then later a pouring of crimson.

To hold myself tight

Is to no avail.

Like wet bandages.

In my mind, I replay 

This constant movie.

It is a silent black and white film 

In it I'm screaming out

"God, why can't I just be perfect?"

Again I unravel

Again I fall apart

Again I turn to ashes

Too weak to build myself up again 

But I do

And I did

Forget Words

Let us forget words

Let's be energy

Feeling our vibration

And responding to frequencies.

I want your depth 

But I don't want it in literacy

Talk to me telepathically 

Through eyes staring across a dimly lit room

They say that the eyes are the window to your soul

But I say your eyes should speak a language your mouth couldn't utter. 

Say it again

But only in touch, smell, and sight.

You are a perfect rainbow 

Even if described by only the joy it brings instead of its colors.

Let's love one another

And again until our life force exhausts

I want to see you beyond what is said 

I want to love you through muted sounds; through words long lost

Wounds

They come to me seeking refuge

And I am their fortress 

Wiping away Salty streams of tears 

And oceans of sorrow deep enough to drown in

Yet, I insist on showing up every time

I am tattered myself

But leave it to me to take what little bullet riddled armor I have and to place it on them

Still bleeding from past traumas

I wish I could save myself and them...

But I'd rather save them

As I watch myself die 

Maybe I'll be a good sacrifice

In my mind, at least I was worth something

Even if that something was empathy 

Shared sorrow

Or shared space in the middle of someone else's darkness

You (Haiku)

My heart bled that day

When you said I was pretty

It was a good lie 

In All Seriousness

I don't know me.

I thought that once I got old enough

My reflection, I could see

More clearly

But it just keeps getting more foggy everyday

Always, there are more dragons to slay

More convoluted questions

And even more answers that leave me lost

Why is life like a continuous game where I never seem to overcome the biggest boss?

Whatever that is for me

I want to finally be able to see

And to realize why am I here?

Who am I to be?